Make your own path and the way will find you.
What is meant to be will always come back to you…
It’s been a while since I’ve been writing and I took a much needed break after all my treks last year which saw me walking through extremes of weather from the green yet icy landscapes of Iceland to the extreme heat of the Sahara Desert for charity. There’s nothing I love more than putting my walking boots on and setting off to new pastures. Each place I get called to has its own energy and something to teach to me. It’s like my soul knows where I need to go and it’s about listening to that voice inside of myself no matter how crazy it may seem.
It took a lot of commitment to follow my inner guidance to trek the world again after completing my Mount Kilimanjaro trek back in 2014. I knew from past experience that it would demand a lot of me but as always I was willing to take the risk and give this a try even if I failed. It is true what they say in that ‘the journey is the destination’. Unless we take the risk, we can never know how far we can go and what we are made of. We can learn so much in the process of becoming who we want to be and in taking that leap in our lives we have already won in a lot of ways.
I had to put all my thoughts aside in order to do this. I would have so many flying around in my head – ‘you are not good enough’, ‘you will fail’, ‘who do you think you are doing something like this’, – and so much more. The human mind can lead us astray. We have around 60,000 thoughts a day and most of them can be negative and even take over our lives until they seem real. I knew no matter how powerful my inner critic could be, I was much stronger. Throughout my training my inner critic would follow me everywhere I went telling me I can’t do this and people would laugh at my attempt to trek again. It had no merit yet it was a constant presence in my life.
If I have learnt anything on my journey of self-discovery it’s to continue to have a relationship with my so-called mind. I had to learn to breathe and let these thoughts flow in and out of my daily life as I continued to train.
I believe the biggest journey any of us can take is to become the master of our own minds. Even though my treks and all the training I did was physically demanding, it was inside of my mind where the real training occurred. Sometimes it would get really dark as if the light will never come on again and I would have to force myself to get up to train. This was especially the case when there was a family bereavement right before my last trek in the Sahara Desert. It was unexpected and meant I had to travel abroad for the funeral beforehand.
My inner critic was stronger than ever and told me to give up completely but I knew inside of myself that life never gives you anything you can’t handle. I was in unfamiliar territories and was up early mornings to train in between my family commitments for the funeral with my mind still telling me to give up. However, I found solace in my faith and did what I needed to do.
I did what seemed impossible at the time and then flew back to walk the Sahara Desert. I knew somehow I wouldn’t be alone and that I gained an angel in my life who would walk alongside of me as one of my cheerleaders. I thought to myself that life is too short to not do this and it’s important to take the opportunity to follow our path no matter how uncertain or scary it may feel at first. It is there that we will find our greatest treasures and a place in our hearts we can call Home.
Lots of love,
Awakening to the truth,
The dreamer inside
lives the dance.
The love of the Self
will always be,
As the art of grace
rekindles the fire.
For a very long time, I felt like something was missing from my life. No matter how many workshops I went to or how much exploring I did of the Self, I could not shake this feeling off that seemed to plague my very existence. I was left with the sense that everyone else around me was doing much better than me and seemed so much more together than I was. It is something that really comes up within me now and again to this day and affects everything I do and how I interact with others. Although I know this is not my truth, it doesn’t always stop it from coming up in my life even in moments where I feel immense joy and appreciation.
I was very fortunate to be amongst some amazing women over the weekend and being able to share with them and dance in the sacredness of the feminine helped to remind me that it is absolutely ok to show up as I am. However I was feeling and whoever I was being in that moment was enough and will always be enough. It’s amazing to me that no matter how much I have learnt over the course of my journey, how easy it is to forget. That is the thing about being on such a path, there is no end. It is a process for sure. It takes us to places that if we are courageous enough to enter, the unknown will speak to us and move us higher and higher. There is a strength there. There is a powerful vulnerability that is revealed.
I have come to realise that I do not need to be fixed or be in a certain place or reach a certain goal to move forward. To be born as human beings is such a miracle in itself and when I think of that, it makes me wonder ‘how can this not be enough’. We are all growing and moving together. Sometimes in different ways since we are all unique with different blueprints of what we came here to do (or rather be). Nevertheless, it is always good to remember that to move forward, the key to it all is to simply be ourselves. We hold that key in our hearts, and we can open up to let that love expand and enrich our lives in every way and with every person we meet.
To love is to give.
Wow, there is very powerful energy in the air. Can you feel it? Since September has arrived something feels different. Not only is the season changing but there is a huge Universal shift that is causing many to rise to the next level. Not all of it is comfortable or even makes sense but beneath the details of our lives I believe the soul is always working towards our Highest Good. Then it’s about learning to let go so we can bring our desires into manifestation.
One cannot know the light without knowing the darkness…
This shift is bringing many endings and a deep need for reflection in my life. I cherish these moments where I can just be and tune into what my soul wants me to know. In the silence there is healing and hope. There is always hope and this has got me through some trying times in my life, most of which I didn’t expect but am grateful for to this day. Without them I wouldn’t be writing to you or be the person that I have become.
What is really helping me right now is to look back in kindness and compassion to the person I used to be and what I have achieved in the overcoming of those trying times. It is not until you have lived through them that you realise how strong you had to be. Just the realisation of that is a strength in itself and to be honoured. So wherever you are in the world and in your journey, please take care of your heart and treasure the person that you are today. You are perfect just as you are.
In love and light,